78 - slippers

#100happydays 

day 78 (July 13)

Life isn't always a walk in the park,

and I'd be lying to you if I said it was. 

Today was just an okay kind of day, and it ended rough. 

It sucks to have something you love to do create so much pain. 

I played violin for church this morning,

and because of that,

I spent the greater part of my day with my entire left arm hurting. 

It. Sucks. 

For the next few days, 

I will likely live on the cusp of pain, 

teetering at the edge of a threshold,

not in great agony yet,

but only ever one small move away from falling into a downward spiral of hurt,

physically and mentally. 

This is how my life is sometimes. 

I hate it. 

Sometimes, I just learn to live with it. 

I am thankful such episodes are fewer and further between than earlier in my life, during my college years. 

On days when I have great pain,

zero motivation to do things,

and a fear of doing anything that might cause the pain to worsen (which is just about everything, as arms and hands and shoulders are used a lot in day to day activity),

I can find joy in the colorful-ness of my slippers,

and be thankful that my legs and feet work just fine. 

I just lay on my bed, 

flat on my back, 

and listen to movies and TV shows on the internet

(that I cannot easily watch because of positioning and trying to reduce pain)

while wearing my awesome slippers that I tie dyed myself a few weeks ago.